What Happens When We Apply Pressure?

Good Afternoon my brother’s and sister’s in Christ. I pray you’ve spent your time living intentionally and with purpose. We are a few days post my usual Self-Care Sunday blog. Seems I’ve been transitioning out of the routine of posting every Sunday. Needless to say, behind the scenes of blogging I’ve had my hand in a few other projects. My last post talked about the foundations of a Christian Holistic Lifestyle. To sum it up it’s the decision one makes to live whole in all aspects of life. Spiritually, Mentally, Emotionally, and Physically. I provided some ideas useful for promoting more activity in those 4 areas daily. I pray they helped all of you who are interested in shifting the way you’ve chosen to live.

This past week I found myself feeling off balanced. In the past when this feeling would come over me I would resort to things or activities to make myself “feel better.” Fast forward to the present day I’m more interested in acknowledging an unsteady emotion while discovering the trigger behind it. This week I couldn’t figure out the trigger immediately. What caused me to be in a state of “Blah?” One thing I know is we can be so close to a situation we can’t see what’s in front of us. I spoke to my Spiritual Mentor and she brought clarity to my clouded emotion. With her wisdom, we were able to pinpoint a trigger of mine. Goals! Expectations! Time!

Have you ever heard the phrase, “I’m my worse critic?” Truly, this is something God is healing me from daily. I no longer bash myself verbally like I once did. However, the pressure I place on myself to produce in a certain time frame doesn’t always align with God’s timing. The pressure was my adversary in the unbalanced emotional state I felt earlier this week. I realized even though I’m growing I can’t speed up the process of my growth. With all my goals and visions there is a time and season for them to fully bloom. The Bible depicts this concept as seed, time, and harvest. I believe most of us throw the towel in right when the “time” portion exceeds what we had in mind.

This was it! I subconsciously started to feel defeat, because I realized the journey ahead of me wasn’t instantaneous. I understood in order for me to operate in the fullness of who God created me to be would take more TIME. We spend so much of our life living how we want then expect God to expedite our journey to our purpose. Reflecting, I’m not sure I really conceptualized what it would take to undo all the layers of who I chose to be before I gave myself to Christ. With each growth spurt, I experienced an additional discovery of hidden triggers. Who I was all those years produced layers of chaos and as they are exposed God is correcting each layer.

I had a dream a few nights ago. My local Pastor spoke to me saying,” You are in a state of Corrective Chaos.” When I opened my eyes I looked up the definition of both words. I had this revelation: Corrective Chaos is the state in which God corrects or counteracts complete disorder and confusion. The Holy Spirit calmed my uneasiness immediately. Jesus is correcting EVERY chaotic thing associated with me and my history. This is why I couldn’t speed up the process. He was undoing what I had done while allowing me to grow in my newness. My instruction during this time was to endure the process, have compassion for who I was, and fall in love with who I’m becoming. Thank you, Jesus.

Perhaps you’re on your journey to purpose and find yourself applying pressure where it isn’t needed. Maybe you’re growing weary in your well-doing. If so, I want to encourage you. I want you to stop applying pressure in the places God is correcting. One thing I know about working under pressure is you’ll never produce optimally. If you operate in a state of pressure you lose the clarity, and wisdom needed for the task. It’s time to stop pressuring yourself to produce a harvest out of season. It will NEVER happen. So take a deep breath. Listen to what God is telling you. Most importantly, endure the process, have compassion for who you were, and fall in love with who you’re becoming. Blessings!

“Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.”

Galatians 6:9

The Power of Relationships

Good Evening my brothers and sisters in Christ. We are at the end of one week and the beginning of another. I pray you’ve spent your time living intentionally and with purpose. I had the pleasure of being one of the speakers at, “There Is Beauty In The Vision” women’s event yesterday. It was truly refreshing for those who attended. I believe the event sparked an activation for everyone there. It’s amazing how powerful you feel when you’re connected to the right people. In light of the women’s event, we’re going to talk about “The Power of Relationships.” As always I pray this post inspires you to self-reflect and make adjustments as needed. Blessings.

Relationships are defined as, the way in which two or more concepts, objects, or people are connected, or the state of being connected. We have relationships with our spouses, children, parents, friends, careers, ourselves, and God to name a few. In retrospect, some of us may have unhealthy relationships with some of those same people. Regardless, of the condition of our relationships, the influence is still powerful. Our relationships teach us to be loving, caring, dependable. Sometimes they teach us to hate, self-sabotage, or operate in sin. Our relationships can easily grow or kill us.

Relationships are so important even Jesus Christ himself desires it from us. So much so, if we don’t have a relationship with Him we won’t make it into the kingdom of Heaven. It was my lack of relationship with my parents growing up which activated a spirit of rejection. My childhood relationship with molestation which introduced me to homosexuality. My abusive relationship with men which activated spirits of substance abuse and self-medicating. It was my lack of relationship with Jesus Christ which gave the enemy free range to deposit whatever he wanted. My relationship with sin introduced me to selfishness, greed, lust, perversion, mental anguish, destruction, doubt, fear, torment, and disillusionment. It was my relationships that tore me down. However, when I fully gave my life to Jesus Christ it was the relationship with Him that built me up.

Maybe you’re like me. Someone who struggled through life trying to grow in the midst of unhealthy relationships. Not realizing some of those relationships we’re killing my hopes, dreams, aspirations, vision, growth, and purpose. Some of you have relationships with the hurt from the lack of connection you had with loved ones. Killing yourself with the ideas of them not being there for you as you’d hoped they would be. Don’t you know you have access to someone who will always be there for you?

When I started growing in God I was able to pull up the roots of every relationship sent to demolish me. Every seed deposited inside of me growing up had no choice except to come up and come out. I grew in the Power and Authority which was given to me from my relationship with Jesus. I was able to see the spirits behind those who afflicted me. I was able to reject their attacks. It is my relationship with Jesus which made me realize I didn’t have to hold onto the mental bondage of my past. I’ve been delivered and have the strength to freely share with the world what I once struggled with is no longer a struggle of mine. It was my relationship with Jesus Christ that showed me how to love me unconditionally. It showed me how special I truly was to my Father, God. It introduced me to a life filled with healing, deliverance, overflow, wealth, peace, power, focus, meaning, love, compassion, and purpose. The Power of my relationship with God completely transformed my existence.

If you’re someone who has lived a life full of unhealthy relationships I challenge you to no longer walk with them. Take a stand for you today. No longer will you willingly participate in your destruction. No longer will you allow demonic spirits working in others to deposit seeds into your mind, body, and spirit. The first step is choosing God. Make your relationship with Him your priority today. He wants your heart. Give it to Him and I guarantee you’ll never spend another day POWERless. Blessings!

Remember, if the relationship doesn’t grow you, challenge you to be better or push you towards God you don’t need it.


What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us,who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? As it is written:
“For your sake we face death all day long;
    we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:31-39

Mindful Moment – A Love Poem

Good Afternoon my brothers and sisters in Christ. I pray you’ve spent your time living intentionally and with purpose. I wrote this piece on my lunch break today. I know that it’s the day of “love.” I’m sure most of you have made some gesture to a loved one, a friend, Jesus, or yourself. One thing that I love about Yahweh is that He is the epitome of intentional. Everything He does is with purpose. So in the spirit of this “love” day, I was drawn to reflect on how much He loves me. Poetry is my first love when it comes to writing. I don’t share it much but this piece meant something to me. I pray you enjoy it. Happy Love Day. Blessings.

Who is this woman you created me to be?


This creature who I’m learning to love.

I wonder what you were thinking when you weaved me together.

Did you intentionally make me a creative?

Did you say, “Passion” will be in this one?

I wonder if you intentionally made me with dimples and long hair.

If you purposely gifted me with my hands.

Did you mean to make me a “go-getter?”

What about my desire to build women up?

Did you place that in me while I was in my mother’s womb?

How did you find the time to be so methodical in creating me?

Did you know that I would be in this place right now?

A place of complete submission to you?

Did you know that you would be introducing me to your original craftsmanship 33 years after her birth?

I can’t imagine how it feels to perfectly form something that won’t begin developing til decades later.

How loving and patient you are.

The more I think about you the more I am in awe of your existence.

I’m filled with emotion every time I try to conceptualize your thoughts.

You love in a way that I will never.

Your mind goes beyond my greatest ambition.

You’re the ultimate creative.

Guess that’s why you made me in your image.

You wanted me to see the greatness of you in me.

Thank you, Yahweh!

Thank you, for loving me.