God Wants To Reinvent You

Reinvent! This is the word the Holy Spirit gave me to describe what Yahweh was doing in my life. He was “changing me so much so that I appeared to be entirely new.” As grateful and humble as I am for Him doing and continuing to do that in me. I was also anxious. I realized after my last post that I was in this uncomfortable stage in my journey where I gave God just enough room to come in and provide me with the vision to see myself in His image. This past year I made a decision to turn away from my sinful acts and self-indulgence in order to surrender to Yahweh. I spent the year killing my flesh. I willingly gave up coping mechanisms, relationships that had nothing to do with my purpose, mindsets, behaviors, and overall control. My willingness to do those things in the name of Jesus provided the room for Him to wash me clean from my past. How blessed am I the Father loves me this kind of way. You can imagine how many times I cried as He released me from things which once had me bound.

I wrote a poem for “Love Day” last week illustrating this new found person who I have been reinvented into. After I posted the poem I literally spent the following days feeling anxious. I felt lost. It hit me. I arrived at the first stop along my journey with Christ. A point I never thought I would reach. After all these years I finally forgave myself from my past and I no longer associated who I am now with who I once was. When we think about death we typically expect a period of mourning. Death isn’t easy. It hurts. I spent the last year killing everything that knew about myself. Now I had to start over to discover who I really was created to be as a child of God. I was overwhelmed with so much emotion as I came to this realization that I burst out in tears. I didn’t cry because I missed the old me. I cried because I had to live with, speak life too, create content with, and operate in several roles with this person who I knew very little about.

In the midst of this revelation, I spoke to my mentor who asked me, “What’s the word?” She often asks me this question to see if my ears are open at all times in the spirit realm. I simply told her, “Idk.” She followed up the conversation with a word from God. The word being, “What’s the hesitation?” I thought, “Are you kidding me?” After all, I had been through the last year. How was I hesitant? Hours after that conversation I heard from the Holy Spirit. I had given God “just enough” room to do what He had done thus far. I graduated! It was time to move on to the next level. A deeper level in our relationship journey. I found the hesitation. I was back at the place of the unknown. It all made sense. I was scared to lose everything when I made the decision to give my life to God early last year but I trusted Him. My spirit must have felt that I was about to enter into a new level of obedience and trust. It was the same feeling I had last year when I let it all go for God. That’s why I was hesitant. My God!

I had to repent. I was sorry for not trusting Yahweh as I had trusted Him before. I was sorry for limiting what He wanted to do in my life as this new creature in Him. I was sorry for being hesitant to travel further in our journey together. Most importantly I was sorry for not fully embracing the full journey that was ahead of me.

Maybe you’re at this exact place in your relationship journey with Christ. The place where you’re dictating the pace at which you’re moving. Maybe you feel like you’ve had enough obstacles to overcome or that you have nothing else to give. Believe me, I know the feeling but we’re capable of reaching places in God’s strength that we can’t reach in our own. I encourage you to find solace in the two things that helped me this past week. The first thing was a scripture. “And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.” The second thing came from a television show. The lead character simply said, “Don’t give up before the miracle happens.”

My brother and sister in Christ. No matter where you are in your relationship with Yahweh I challenge you to hold on. Let God be who He is. Move out of His way. Don’t grow tired in your well doing. Your miracle is waiting to manifest. Blessings.   

Is Your Vision Limited?

Good Morning my brothers and sisters in Christ. I pray you’ve spent the week living intentionally and with purpose. I was reading in the Gospels this morning. More specifically, John 1. Towards the end of the text, we find Jesus preparing to journey to Galilee. He calls, Philip to follow Him. Philip then goes to get Nathanael to whom he says, “We have found the one Moses wrote about in the Law, and about whom the prophets also wrote—Jesus of Nazareth, the son of Joseph.” Skeptical, Nathanael replied, “Nazareth! Can anything good come from there?” Once they arrived the conversation went like this:

When Jesus saw Nathanael approaching, he said of him, “Here truly is an Israelite in whom there is no deceit.” “How do you know me?” Nathanael asked. Jesus answered, “I saw you while you were still under the fig tree before Philip called you.” Then Nathanael declared, “Rabbi, you are the Son of God; you are the king of Israel.” Jesus said, “You believe because I told you I saw you under the fig tree. You will see greater things than that.” He then added, “Very truly I tell you, you will see ‘heaven open, and the angels of God ascending and descending on’ the Son of Man.” John 1:47‭-‬51 NIV

After reading the text I immediately felt the prompting of the Holy Spirit asking me, “have you ever limited Gods ability?” I can remember times where all I wanted was to know that God was listening to me. Not understanding that He knows all, sees all, and has a plan for my life. Maybe like me, you’re someone who needed healing from their past, control of their finances, or peace. All circumstances that Jesus Christ sees.

The Holy Spirit continued to speak to me. Saying, “What we perceive as hard times doesn’t even qualify as an issue to God.” I can look back over my life and glimpses of the times where I was stuck in my hurt, pain, and loss of identity will pop up. They serve as a reminder that I spent so much of my time focused on how I saw myself and what I was going through when God already knew. Not only did He know me but in spite of my flaws, there were things he wanted to do in me that I couldn’t even begin to imagine.

I believe that sometimes when we spend so long desiring to be healed, financially stable, or just to have consistent peace that’s all we can see. We pray without ceasing for our circumstance to change, for our living situation to change, for our relationships to change. Then we find out that as we seek God more He changes less of those things and more of us.

So how does this all tie together with Nathanael and Jesus? Nathanael believes that Jesus is the Messiah because Jesus sees Him under a fig tree. Guess what? No matter what your prayer is or what you’ve been through Jesus sees you. Jesus then goes on to say, you believe I’m the Messiah because I told you I saw you under the tree? He may be saying to us, “You believe I’m the Messiah because you got that promotion?” That’s not even the beginning of what I can really do in your life. Just wait and see what I’m really capable of doing. Heaven will open up and angels will appear. The God that we pray to over relationships ending, doors closing, and our finances. Is the same God who will open the windows of Heaven. Heaven! While we’re worried about Him blessings us with a new car. 

We have to stop asking God the perform a miracle on circumstances that He has equipped us to handle. Not everything we pray about requires fire from heaven. This is why He changes us instead of the circumstance because if He can change us then we can change the circumstance.

God sees you. He hears you. You are significant. So much so that he knows the number of hairs on your head. I challenge you today to change how you see Jesus. Understand there’s more to Him than just helping us which means there’s more to us. God has placed all these amazing talents and gifts inside of you. We have to allow our vision to be more like God. I encourage you to see yourself. Get a good look. Then realize that the God who opens Heaven Spirit lives within you. You’re capable of more than what you think. Stop limiting the capacity of the gift that is Christ Jesus. Remember, you ain’t seen nothing yet. Blessings.

 

The Top 5 Things Yahweh Showed Me About Myself in 2018.

Good Evening my brothers and sisters in Christ. I pray that you’ve spent the week living intentionally and with purpose. We are currently in the last five days of 2018. After spending the holidays with family in another state, which I loved. I’ve made it back home to round out the rest of my vacation relaxing in the confines of my master bedroom. As I was sitting in bed mentally reviewing the upcoming projects for 2019 the Lord dropped in my spirit everything that I’ve learned about myself this past year. With that being said, I welcome you to “The Top 5 Things Yahweh Showed Me About Myself in 2018.” I’ll be posting one thing I learned about myself for the next five days, in no particular order. As always I pray that it causes you to reflect on your own life and inspires you to make adjustments with the help of Yahweh.

The first thing that Yahweh showed me about myself this past year was that I had no idea who I was. If you follow my blog then you will find many posts about the discovery of the Woman of God I have grown to be now. This woman that is before you was not always easily identified. My roles and titles shaped my identity. My past shaped my thoughts. My life was cultivated in sexual perversion which reigned over my judgment. I was who life formed me to be and my aspirations were designed by those around me.

So you can imagine when I received a task from God at the beginning of the year to come clean about my past decisions I wasn’t thrilled. I remember thinking, “My life is about to be over.” I was petrified that my past had finally caught up with me and that people would no longer view me as the person they thought I was all these years. With my emotions in shambles, I put my sins out there to be judged. Then something miraculous happened.

In my confession, I finally put my obedience to God before I put my fear of how man would view me. It was in that moment that the progression of what is now the best relationship I’ve ever had happened. It was in that moment that my identity as a Child of God was birthed. It was also in that moment that I was introduced to my purpose in this world.

The Word of God says,


“You will never succeed in life if you try to hide your sins. Confess them and give them up; then God will show mercy to you.”

Proverbs 28:13

I spent so many years trying to hide my sins to protect the thing that I should have been dying to every day, my flesh. Yahweh showed me that up until that moment my identity was engulfed in my flesh which was not of Him. So not only did those around me not know who I really was; neither did I. I was tired of being bound by my past. I desired to be free. It was in my freedom that I learned my identity. All of that happened in the moment that I chose to be obedient to God and not to my flesh.

So who is Tiffany? I am a Child of the Most High God which makes me healed, whole, set-free, virtuous, loyal, precious, successful, pure, anointed, wise, and loving to name a few. I am so far from who the world formed me to be and I thank God every day for introducing me to who He created me to be. 2018 will forever be a year that I will remember. It was this year that Yahweh became my number one priority and in return, He showed me how to love my true self. I finally found me.

His Word Tells Us,

So we have stopped evaluating others from a human point of view. At one time we thought of Christ merely from a human point of view. How differently we know him now! This means that anyone who belongs to Christ has become a new person. The old life is gone; a new life has begun! And all of this is a gift from God, who brought us back to himself through Christ. And God has given us this task of reconciling people to him. For God was in Christ, reconciling the world to himself, no longer counting people’s sins against them. And he gave us this wonderful message of reconciliation.  So we are Christ’s ambassadors; God is making his appeal through us. We speak for Christ when we plead, “Come back to God!” For God made Christ, who never sinned, to be the offering for our sin so that we could be made right with God through Christ.”

2 Corinthians 5:16-21

“Allow Yahweh to introduce you to who He created you to be. That person is worth getting to know.” ~T.Nolan

Do What You Love

Good evening my brothers and sisters in Christ. I pray you’ve spent the week living intentionally and with purpose. If you haven’t listened to my audio about my “Perpetual State of Worship.” Check out my prior post from this week. I pray that it will encourage you to become more cognizant of the time you spend in worship with God.

Today is another edition of Self-Care Sunday. This is my weekly Sunday post where I get to provide further insight and tips on how to become more conscious of your ability to self-care. In the past, my posts have typically dealt with our state of mind and allowing God to lead us in our lives. As a baseline, all my posts will be intertwined with growing in God then building upon that relationship. Now that we’ve got that disclaimer out the way let’s talk Self-Care.

I love to write! I can’t tell you when I started writing but I have journals that are 20 years old. When I write I pour everything I’m feeling into what I’m writing. It brings me happiness, it relaxes me, it’s a great stress reliever, and it comes naturally. When I was praying for God to reveal to me what this weeks Self-Care Sunday post should be about; He told to write about what I love to do. He told me to ask His people, “What is it they love to do and does that thing edify Him?” I can remember a time that I use to love to drink alcohol and party. It provided no lasting fulfillment, but every weekend I was out with my girls. Even in the midst of my emptiness I always found myself writing. From poetry, songs, blog posts, and soon to be books writing is what I love to do.

Self-Care is about investing in yourself. Your inner self first then in all other areas. When was the last time you spent time doing something that you love to do that was just about you? Not you and your friends. Not you and work. Not you and you’re significant other. Just you and the thing that you inherently love to do. Don’t forget to ask yourself does it edify God?

The more I grow in Christ I understand that the thing that I love to do so much that is natural to me is a gift God gave me. Even though it brings me so much joy and satisfaction it ultimately isn’t just for me. My love of writing is my God-given contribution to the Kingdom. When He told me to ask you does what you love to do edify Him. He wanted us to gain perspective. When Christ gives you an ability He expects that ability to grow. When cultivated properly not only will it grow you but it will grow those who come into contact with you. Ask yourselves, “Does what you love to do grow you and those around you? Or does what you love to do prevent growth within yourself and others around you?”

The word of God says,

So Christ himself gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the pastors, and teachers, to equip his people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining to the whole measure of the fullness of Christ.

(Ephesians 4:11-13)

This means that we were all given a gift to do something. God is so gracious that He allows the gift He placed on the inside of us to also be the thing that we love to do. When you love to do something it isn’t a chore. It’s the thing that you will invest in, the thing that will build you, and grow you. It’s the thing that will change the lives of people who come in contact with you. Your gift is impactful. Your ability to do it is unlike anyone else. It was specifically planted on the inside of you and is awaiting the opportunity to be birthed and grow. God sent me here to tell you, “Don’t allow life issues to stop the growth of what He planted on the inside of you.” Develop that thing that you inherently love to do that edifies Christ. Invest your time in it. Allow it to blossom. Don’t hold up someone else deliverance by your stubbornness to not grow what God gave you. When you do that you are forfeiting your right to be connected to the vine.

The Bible tells us,

“I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me?

“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from m,e, you can do nothing. If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.

(John 15:1-8)

Have you been cut from the vine, because you’re choosing to not grow your God-given gift? If so, I challenge you to reconnect to the vine, which is Jesus. Dig deep. As Him to reveal to you what He placed on the inside of you. Maybe you have been so estranged from the Father that you can’t remember what that thing is. Ask Him to restore your gift. As you seek Him more He will do what you asked. When He does don’t miss the opportunity to grow the gift He planted. Remember, we all have a gift. Yours is unlike anyone else. No one can do it like you. The Kingdom is waiting for you to do what you love to do. This is your sign to do it. Blessings.

My Perpetual State of Worship

I heard the Lord say, “Perpetual State of Worship” as I was in worship this morning. Perpetual means never ending, everlasting, eternal, undying. I know you’re wondering how can I worship God all day? Worship isn’t just an intimate moment with our Father where we are crying out to Him during prayer. We worship Him in our obedience to His word. We worship Him when we follow His directions. We worship Him when we repent for our sins and turn from them. We worship Him by putting Him first in our lives.

This morning in my prayer and study time He was speaking to me while simultaneously giving me a vision. He began to show me the beauty inside of me. This beauty was my spirit blossoming in Him.  I’ve recorded an audio that I’ve placed at the bottom of this post. It’s me talking about my worship experience with Christ. As always I pray that it causes you to reflect and examine yourself. Allow God to become your first priority, because you’re His priority. Blessings!

This week’s Moment Of Mindfulness task is to develop a perpetual state of worship for Jesus Christ. 

 

What Are You Committed To?

Thanks for stopping by this week’s Self-Care Sunday Post. Before you read press play and take a listen.

In May of this year, Yeshua told me that I needed to change my priorities and commitments. He gave me a list in the following order of importance:

  1. My relationship with the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. Understanding that at the root of me you would now find the presence of God.
  2. My covenant with my husband. Knowing that we made the biggest commitment to each either when we chose to commit to God.
  3. My level of influence in the Kingdom. Accepting that I will not be the Woman of God who keeps God’s glory to herself. I have an obligation in my position to draw all men and woman to our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.

These three things were the priorities God gave me. He told me that in order to thrive in these relationships I needed to learn how to commit to them. I needed to become disciplined in order to invest time and be consistent with my commitments. He gave me Matthew 7: 7-8 as my foundation for this journey. The text which reads,

 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.”

This scripture is the cause and effect when we are committed to God. Yeshua told me that if I were to become disciplined and consistent in my relationship with Him that I would find everything that He has for me. Needless to say, I did just as He instructed me to do.

Fast Forward six months and so much has changed in my life. Just last week as I was in morning prayer and Bible study I heard the Lord say, “He is adjusting my values and my list of importance has now changed.”  Immediately following this I heard a pastor say, “the enemy attacks what you value the most. He does it in efforts to get to our Faith in God.” WOW! It made me think about all the things that I valued above my relationship with God. The things that were first prior to the last six months of my life. It made me reflect on how the enemy attacked those things and those relationships. How those attacks affected my Faith in God. I received so much revelation about commitment this week. I came into the understanding that when God is the person you value the most above everything else in your life; the enemy can’t attack that. He can attack our finances, our marriage, our jobs, our business, our faith, but HE CAN’T ATTACK GOD. So if the thing that I value the most is the thing the enemy can’t get too; why wouldn’t I commit to that before anything else?

What have you valued more than the Lord? Is it social media, relationships, money, appearance, gossip, people, recreational activities? Yeshua wants the first fruits from us. That’s our best. What have you been giving your best too over God? Get your pen and paper. Let’s write it down. Now that you have your list let me walk you through a few definitions before I share how I became committed.

  • Self-Discipline is the ability to control one’s feelings and overcome one’s weakness; the ability to pursue what one thinks is right despite temptations to abandon it.
  • Value is the importance, worth, or usefulness of something.
  • Consistent is unchanging in nature, standard, or effect over time.
  • Commitment is the willingness to give your time and energy to something you believe in, or a promise, or firm decision to do something.

One thing that I learned about self-discipline is that it’s a decision. We have to decide if our weaknesses will continue to control us or will we control our weaknesses? I understood that I can only find the strength to become self-disciplined in Yeshua. So the base of my success was contingent upon my commitment to God. Here’s how I went from putting everything and everyone before God. To putting Him first and completely altering my life.

  1. I was tired of the trauma from my past spilling over into every area of my life. My past was prevalent in my now, and I didn’t want to live with it anymore. So I made a decision to seek God wholeheartedly. It caused me to expose areas that I was trying to hide, but in the end, God fixed what was broken. It was hard but His grace and mercy towards me reigned. Now my life, marriage, and my level of influence have forever changed.
  2. I changed my priorities. If I was going to put God first then that looked like something. Every morning I get up at 4am to spend an hour in prayer and Bible study. I do this seven days a week. Throughout my day I find moments to give God praise. I pray, read the word, listen to sermons, and journal often. I had to edit what I was allowing my ears to hear, my eyes to see, and my mind to think. I invested time with the Father before I invested time in anything or anyone else. Doing these things showed me how to form a habit of discipline, consistency, and commitment. Understand that if you can become disciplined and consistent in your relationship with Yeshua then you can become disciplined and consistent in anything.
  3. I got comfortable with the fact that as I became committed to God I was going to fall out of agreement with things and people. I gave up some “friendships” when I became committing to God. My interest changed, my thought process changed, my values changed. Some of those old relationships were no longer conducive to who I was becoming in Christ. To be honest, the more I grew the more I saw I didn’t really like certain things that I thought I did at one point.
  4. I didn’t stop when things got tough. This journey is a life-long journey. Submitting to Yeshua is something that you have to know that you will be doing the rest of your life. In doing so, every illegal spirit that has been lying dormant in your life will come up and come out. You’ll have to revisit some hurtful moments, but God is a healer. You’ll have to let some people go, but He’s a friend. You’ll have to relinquish your comfort, but He’s a great comforter. You’ll have to put all your trust in Him, but He’s faithful. When you think you’re losing everything on your journey you’re really gaining more than you could imagine.

To sum it all up I had to get tired of living an unpurposeful life, I had to change my priorities, I had to give up my life so that I could gain life, and I didn’t give up my pursuit of growing in my relationship with Yeshua when things became tough.

If your priorities are out of order and you lack commitment to Christ I challenge you to take a stand for yourself. Lack of self-discipline and commitment is a lack of self-care. Don’t you know that God desires to take care of you and show you how to take care of yourself? Don’t spend another day living life with no structure. You will only find transformation in your ability to commit to the Father. Once you do then you’ll truly be able to tap into everything that God has for you. Blessings.

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Am I in Proper Position?

Good Evening my brothers and sisters in Christ. I pray that you’ve spent the week living intentionally and with purpose. As we continually grow in our knowledge of self-care I’m learning the importance of being in proper position. I know that our understanding of proper positioning may have been planted in us as children. Sometimes our life experiences form our belief in the way we think, who we are, and what we should be doing. Ultimately, we only find proper positioning in Christ. Self-Care is all about ensuring that you are intentional about yourself in a way that allows you to function at your highest capacity. If you’re practicing good self-care, then you should be in proper position in every area of your life. I want to spend this time walking you through my own experience in getting into proper position. My prayer is that it will provide insight to you while you are yet on your journey to being positioned properly.

So often we think the enemy is attacking us. Dealing with infertility for several years now. I often felt as if he was attacking my body to prevent me from having children. As I grow in God; He continues to give me understanding regarding the birthing process. I was in worship this morning I heard God say, “The attack on your body isn’t an attack. It’s your spiritual incubation period.” Yeshua told me that He was using this time to extinguish generational curses from my lineage so that I can carry out the healed legacy that my Mother is currently birthing.”

Incubation is the maintenance of an infant, especially a premature infant, in an environment of controlled temperature, humidity, and oxygen concentration to provide optimal conditions for growth and development. Carry means to support and move from one place to another; to support the weight of.

Yeshua reveals to me daily something new about my Mother. She is the one person in my family who He ordained to shift the trajectory of our legacy. The weight of her purpose is massive. It’s one that she has carried solo for a long time. As I am yet in alignment with Yeshua He is showing me the proper positioning to carry out the vision He gave her for our lineage. A vision that is free from generational curses, sexual immorality, abuse, perversion, incest, molestation, debt, inconsistency, self-sabotaging, disobedience, witchcraft, pride, jealousy, and rebellion. He told me that I couldn’t be in any kind of condition while supporting the weight of the vision. He told me if He had allowed me to birth children when I wanted to I would have undone years of intercessory prayers that went forth for our bloodline.

Culturally we spend so much time worrying about the natural births that we ignore that they should first be cultivated in the spirit. If we spent more time focusing on spiritual incubation we would be in a proper position to produce in a season that has optimal conditions for growth and development. The word of God says,

“For everything there is a season,
a time for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.”
Ecclesiastes 3:1-2

You may be at a point in your life where you feel out of position. If you are unsettled in your mind, relationships, finances, or purpose then you’re probably not in proper position. To shift your life into proper positioning there are a few things you should be meditating on and practicing.

  1. Understand that this life is not your own. God created us all in His image and has placed purpose on the inside of us. Allow Him to reveal your purpose so that you are truly living intentionally and not just existing.
  2. Repent for the things that you’ve done that are not pleasing to Him then turn from those behaviors. God examines our hearts. He wants us to know that with His help we can overcome our past and choose to no longer live without Him again.
  3. Realize that if you’ve made plans, decisions, or moves without the guidance from God then you have placed yourself out of proper position. Once you’ve realized this you have to allow the Holy Spirit to retrain your thought process.
  4. Understand you will never reach the abundance of blessings that Yeshua has for you if you’re choosing to live a life that is disobedient to Him. Disobedience to the Word of God limits and distracts you from reaching blessings, purpose, healing, deliverance, protection, discernment, knowledge, understanding, and wisdom.
  5. Get comfortable with God’s timing. You don’t get to tell God what your timeline is for your life. Your life is already written. He has already formed it. You must get in alignment with His already written timeline.
  6. Proper Position is a lifestyle that requires you to forever be submissive to Yeshua. Whatever you’re looking for you will ONLY find in God. If you choose to live life not submitting to God and His word you will never be in proper position.
  7. Put a value on your relationship with God. This is going to be key from this moment forward. So many of us never valued the importance of having a relationship with Yeshua. We valued our relationships with other people. Parents, boyfriends/girlfriends, husbands/wives, children, money, sex. Everything and everyone except the one who knows and has everything that you will ever need. You must make Him number 1 if you’re going to shift your position.

Self-care and proper positioning go hand in hand. Both things must be directed by the Lord. They both place you in position to operate during the most opportune times. They both give your life meaning. Lastly, they both provide you with ways to live intentionally and with purpose.

I challenge you today to examine your life and pinpoint every plan, decision, and move you’ve made without consulting God. Get a list going. After you’ve completed your list pray and ask Yeshua to reveal to you the effects those decisions had on your life. Take your time. This is an intimate moment between you and the Father. He begins to show you the effects your decisions have had on your life, repent. The single most important relationship you will ever have is your relationship with Yeshua. It’s also the only relationship that exposes you to purpose. Blessings.

 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.  If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.”

James 15: 5-8

Identity

Good afternoon my siblings in Christ. I pray you all have been living intentionally and with purpose. I wanted to put a pin in my current journey and share what’s been going on. I pray you are able to see yourself through my experiences and it encourages you to challenge yourself as you are on your journey to being the best you possible.

IDENTITY! Who are you? This question is one that I’ve been asked more than once in my life. I’m a lot of things. A wife, daughter, sister, friend, college grad, business owner, employee, writer. I am all of these things however these are titles. Though true they don’t define me nor do they give a depiction of who I am. I’m a wife because my husband married me. I’m a daughter because my parents conceived then birthed me. I’m a sister because my parents had additional children. I’m a friend because I’ve invested my time in relationships. I’m a college graduate because I completed school. You get the point, lol. All these things were inherited or obtained through my work ethic.

While on this journey to self-love and self-care you will find yourself at this exact point. The point at which you are so distant from your former self that you no longer recognize who you are. Your past no longer defines you. I’m a survivor of domestic violence. Yeshua protected and graced me to make it through an abusive first marriage. I’m not ashamed of it anymore. I’m healed from it now. I’ve forgiven him and myself. It’s a part of my testimony, but it is not my identity. Identity is defined as the distinguishing character or personality of an individual. It is no longer my character to operate like someone who was abused. On the flip slide, I survived it, and I have been a survivor the majority of my life. So much so that I had to learn how to be a submissive wife to my current husband. So being a survivor isn’t my identity either. So again I ask, “Who are you?”

If you find yourself in this place along your journey. The place that closes a door and opens a new one. Don’t freak out! Lol. It’s perfectly fine that you don’t recognize yourself now that you’ve given your life to God. It’s going to take some time to discover the newness of you. It’s fine to re-evaluate your relationships and friendships at this point. You may even feel the need to step away from some relationships while you’re discovering the new you. If so, it’s ok to do that unless you’re married. (Side note: It is not ok to step away from your marriage, because you’re finding yourself.) I have some people that I’ve considered friends for over a decade and am now at a place that I’ve realized that I don’t know who they are in their current life. As adults who have families, I couldn’t even tell you anything about them and vice versa. It made me think that if our only connection is the past, and I’m no longer living in the past then maybe we don’t have the relationship that we once did. When God comes into your life you fall out of agreement with things and people. Somethings or some people will no longer be familiar to you. I’m not saying to dump all your friends, but take the time to learn who you are as this new man or woman in Christ. Once you’re established in that then seek Him about your relationships.

Fully giving myself to God has me in a place where I don’t recognize who I am since I’ve become a new creature in Him. I know my past and how He has healed me from it. I know how He protected me from my bad decisions and forgave me. Every trait, idea, characteristic, mannerism, and response were wiped away to make room for God’s presence when I gave my life up to live for Him. So what worked for me in the past no longer works for me as a Woman of God. Those things and some people no longer identify with me.

WHO AM I?

I AM A CHILD OF GOD! That I know for sure. As I grow in Him I am learning every day the identity in which He ordained for me. How I think, my character, my morals, and values are all provided by Him not by what I was taught or learned from others. I’m no longer pressed about figuring it all out. I find peace in the fact that I’m intentionally pursuing the one who has already figured it all out for me. Life is no longer about what I have been through, what decisions I made, what others thought about me or what I thought about myself. Life is about discovering the richness of Yeshua. Learning what He had in mind when He created me. Being intentional about loving myself. Thriving in the relationships He established for me. Growing my spirit, spreading the Word of God, and fulfilling my purpose. The more I seek Him the more I find out who I am.

I challenge you to re-evaluate who you are. Do you even know? If not, are you taking the necessary steps to grow in God so that He can reveal it to you? Today is a great day to start if you haven’t already done so. Don’t spend another year, month, week, hour or second allowing your titles to define who you are. Blessings.

“What marvelous love the Father has extended to us! Just look at it—we’re called children of God! That’s who we really are. But that’s also why the world doesn’t recognize us or take us seriously, because it has no idea who He is or what He’s up to.”

“But friends, that’s exactly who we are: children of God. And that’s only the beginning. Who knows how we’ll end up! What we know is that when Christ is openly revealed, we’ll see Him—and in seeing Him, become like Him. All of us who look forward to his Coming stay ready, with the glistening purity of Jesus’ life as a model for our own.”

1 John 3:1-3 The Message (MSG)